i feel more alert then ever.
my eyes are lying to me. fuck what is going on I can’t bring myself to do anything productive. I havent talked to a decent stranger in years and clearly I’ve forgotten how to make a friend. In method it can’t be plotted or taught, in practice shown it can’t be replicated. jesus christ. just grant me the gift of solid concentration and solipsism, for I dont want to be in other people’s shoes anymore.
my soles have calluses now. I just want to work till my hands feel like paper
ps happy 500th post